I want to be good.

I want to be good. I want to be healthy. But I don’t know how. I don’t think I ever knew how. I tried to teach myself once, but that didn’t end so well. I have so many different versions of what healthy should be, but I am none of them. I can pretend I am and follow this rule and that. But in the end I am still not healthy. I can follow what the magazines say and it still won’t be enough. I can follow what the doctors say and that might even be worse. I can pick and choose what my own version of healthy is, but in the end it isn’t enough. 

I don’t know what I’m doing, or how to do it. I just know I need to do something. And I need someone to help.

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One thought on “I want to be good.

  1. I want to be good.

    How true that rings for so many of us on this journey. We never feel good enough. We feel broken. I could easily say that you are good you are beautiful you are precious, even if I don’t believe those words for my own self. I don’t know if that will ring louder the. This voice that plays in your head. But I hope even if for a moment you hear it!

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