100.

100 pounds of body mass.

100 reasons to die.

100 reasons to live.

100 reasons to relapse further.

100 reasons to recovery.

100 thoughts running though my head at any given moment.

100 times a day I remind myself how gross I am. 

100 times an hour I think about food.

100 reasons I should just kill myself.

100 reason to just keep trying. 

100 reasons to leave.

100 reasons to stay.

100 excuses.

100 pounds too heavy.